Love is only. Love is lonely. Love exists by means of life.
While impossible to guess at the future, I can’t help but fall into memories of the past, memories tied to wonderful people and memories tied to the most painfully beautiful art.
How am I ready to know life?
You see… I work long hours. Project Iko dictates a constant cycle of writing, filming, editing, posting, engaging, rinse, and repeat. Sometimes, I need to be reminded about why I’m doing this. Sometimes, I need to remember the importance of passion. Sometimes, I need to step back.
I sat down today and watched a film, a beautiful film I was given by a woman many years ago.
Art when done with passion begs for an audience. I have a few favorite movies and this one always leads me to question my life, my future, and myself. The film I just watched is about love. It follows a storyline of a love fated and ill fated, yet pure in honesty. For that, the movie is beautiful.
Beyond that, the experiences I’ve had watching it and discussing it are among the most vivid, passionate, and painful. I remember looking into the eyes of an inspiring woman and attempting at great length to express the feeling left imprinted on us both by that exhausting film all while translating thoughts for our amazing Japanese language teacher.
I remember those moments intertwined with the moments on screen. And that is the beauty of life. You see, this movie was in Japanese yet drew upon western themes to such an extent, my biblical knowledge was being called upon in particular during a heavily passionate scene involving a girl screaming the Japanese translation of Corinthians 13 at her captor who attempted so fervently to deprogram her recent cult initiation. My memory then waivers into an electronic dictionary while sitting in our Japanese teacher’s home, finding the right words to explain the variants and nuances of love.
Sitting in a lounge of a hotel in Ankara, I hope to push others into moments like this; moments of understanding, moments of excitement, and moments of sheer challenge.
One of my favorite films. After watching, I am left with a feeling I can’t fully express, a feeling I barely understand. If I can inspire one passionate person, then my trip, my project, my life will prove to be worthy of such a wonderful thing as this.